Dear Journal,
I always loved Lisa Kudrow the most in Friends, but after watching two Jennifer Aniston movies I must say she's an amazing actress.
I have connected with every role I've ever watched her in. Today, despite having work I watched a lot of Friends and a movie, Friends with Money.
I related with her character Olivia so much. I may be a mix of Olivia and Phoebe. I mean I've been obsessed, awkward, and kinky. Also, I've never ever dated a guy so far with whom I share common interests. The only guy I thought I ever loved, out of the ones I dated was G, and he turned out to be such a loser, kind of like Phoebe's David.
To be honest, I've been weird, very weird, potted and smoked and weird.
Now, I've grown amazingly fat thanks to the medicines I'm on. I've gained 22 kgs in a year, haven't had my periods in months, and am a hormonal mess.
Frankly, Pa's injury worries me and there are other worries at the back of my mind. Like, what if I lose Ma and Pa some day. I adore them and that is why I shower them with love like no other. I love my parents.
Will I ever find a guy with whom I share common interests? Will I have a secure future? Will I be driven? Will I achieve my goals? Will I love?
I'm also worried about Bu. I want him to live long and be healthy, and I want to always get along with him and his future wife. After all, I want to shower his kids with so much love.
I guess I do love Bu the most, but most of it is hidden like a submerged submarine. But what I feel is my love for Ma and Pa. They drive me crazy but I love them so. My googleboogleys. I know I love Bu the most, because I tolerate him like I would my son.
Enough said.
Baba, get well soon.
Regards,
Me.
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