Journal 16.8.22 5.58 pm

Dear Journal, 
I'm waiting for my Mc delivery and Chandan, a former colleague. I'm not interested in dating most people I meet. Not Nagesh, whose talking about people and their class bugs me to the hilt, not anybody. And Chandan is such a bore. 
I sometimes think about Naishad, but then I realised he was never interested in me. I mean in college he and his friends pretended like I didn't exist. I send him the odd forward and he acknowledges it and that's about it. I've never really dated someone I wanted to date. I mean I've never really been attracted to the guys I've had relationships with. Bhabesh, Rohan, Shyam-- what a despicable list! Bhabesh was the bad sort. I actually found him ugly. 
Why did I waste my time with these guys? I guess I mustve been really lonely. No making that mistake again. 
I've got to really start writing well. 
Love, 
Me

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