Dear Journal,
I went and visited Ankesh the other day; spent 12k so far on fees, meds etc. I have a huge fibroid in my uterus. Medical bills are so expensive in India.
Met Chandanda a while ago; he is such a bore. Seems like a mean-minded sort of fella.
Also, I'm getting a lot of rewrites on the job. Must do a better job. The client is king after all.
You never know what people really think about you, and you will never know.
Have started Ankesh's medicines. He did say that K Rao's medicines have to stop. The fibroid is largely because of them.
Well, for years my family has had no faith in me and Baba has often not allowed me to live my life the way I want to often creating impediments for me. But I've had it better off than most Indian girls. Pa has never understood how he may have faltered. Just a few months ago Ma told me the Tantrik never molested me and that I was cooking things up. Well, this is my reality. Can't expect my family to believe me.
There are so many success stories where people have succeeded despite nobody believing in them. I hope to be the biggest success story there can ever be.
I have been meditating everyday on love, praying to only love. Love is reason. Since I've started this I have been thinking about past loves and bfs, and realised none of them were meant to stay in my life. Otherwise they would have worked out.
Nagesh irritated me a lot the other day. He called me middle class and himself upperclass. Doesn't he have enough class to know that you must not discriminate based on class. It's a good thing I don't meet him that often anymore. He's nice and all albeit classless.
Once we went somewhere in his car; can't remember where. There was music playing and the recorder had the title Busty Ladies xxx and things to that effect ticking away. I realised he must be a huge porn addict. Don't have so much time for losers like him. Can't stand a porn addict.
I am grateful for this life.
I'm grateful for my job.
I'm grateful for my friends.
I'm grateful for our good health as a family.
I'm grateful that I sleep a full deep sleep each night.
I'm grateful for my bosses and colleagues.
I'm grateful for the future.
I'm grateful for all the food I eat.
I'm grateful to buy a house soon.
I'm grateful for love.
Love,
Me.
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