Journal 22.8.22 11.53 am

Dear Journal, 
I saw Bhabesh in my dreams in the morning. And of course, as always I googled it. Actually through the day after listening to an hour of music in the morning methought: no regrets. 
I may not have loved all the men I've been with, but I did try and so did they. 
We tried, it didn't work out. I've become more selective and may be prudent. Such is life. 
I know there is an extraordinary man somewhere to love. I just don't know where he is or who he is. It's not Naishad, or Q, or anyone like that I'm sure. Because if so may be I would be with them. No regrets. Had the experience. A learning. I'm grateful. 
My heart is often filled with love to the brim. Often, not always. I wish the feeling was there to last forever. The joy of love. 
What or who do I love so? I have no clue. May be life. 
I'm grateful for my parents. 
I'm grateful for my job. 
I'm grateful for music and books. 
I'm grateful that I paint. 
I'm grateful for art. 
I'm grateful for this amazing company I'm serving. 
I'm grateful for love. 
I'm grateful for life. 
Love, 
Me. 

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