Journal 5.5.2023 AD 2.30 pm

 Dear  Journal,

Am I happy? As happy as I could be I am. 

I seek to not be alone and to find a super awesome guy. Thus far I haven't found anyone to excite me.

There was G. But he, oh he was something else. A sad, lonely soul.

Then there of course is my fantasy, aching to be loved. And loved I am in my dreams. When will these dreams become a reality?

My wonderment is nothing new. My wanderment is a thing of today to be relished and to be cherished.

My love is real. In fact, only love is real.

A soul so lovely, so sweet, so fragrant will read my epitaph.

I love my parents. Having studied Buddhism parents and spouses change from lifetime to lifetime. What remains eternal is our eternal vow. This is a little sad. I wish to serve my parents in this lifetime.

I haven't met Buro in a long time. To love him is to know love.

I know I have riffled feathers, I know I haven't been the ideal girl. And I know I might have some mental health issues. I can blame my upbringing and my circumstances but I won't do that.

It is time to take responsibility. The time is now.

Love,

Me.

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